Edging God Out

I have to admit, my life is a blur.
I just don't know what I have become in a matter of weeks.
How did I lose so much ground in such a short amount of time?
Where did it go? The passion, the fire, the fearlessness...

I know where it went.
God wanted me to step out on faith and trust Him.
I found myself in debt and doubt
Somewhere along the way I made an error
I decided that fixing my pocket book was more important than anything else
More important than God?!
Obviously that wasn't the intent
It turned out to be the result.

Running The Race is a difficult road
It is in a sense a war
I thought that I had a secret weapon against Satan
I lost focus
It seams Satan had a secret weapon of his own... maybe a couple

Everyone thinks Satan comes in the form of alcohol, drugs, sex, murder, hate, you know the drill
I'm sure he delights in these things
But they're by no means his secret weapon
I'm sure I haven't figured him out in every way
But I have discovered a few of his invisible tricks... the hard way
Busyness
Independence... ego
Security

My life turned into a list of things to do, but not enough time to do them
I stopped reading the Bible
I stopped praying
I essentially divorced God
And it all happened so fast...

I'm cutting it off
Throwing Satan's brilliant plan out the window
I'm fighting back

EGO: Edging God Out