So I was thinking (which I do too much maybe... thinking that is), how weird it would be to go back 4 years and see what I was thinking then. I know one thing, it would look nothing like what it does now. Here is a list of a few of my thoughts of what my future would look like when I was 4 years younger than I am now:
I will be a veterinarian
I will have a large house with a white picket fence and a guest house out back
I will have a nice car
I will have a wife
I will have lots of kids
I would never work in full time ministry
I would never want to work with inner-city kids
homeless people scare me
I love America
I would never want to live outside of America
Yeah, so if you have been keeping up with my life, you can kinda see how much God has changed my views on life. I was pretty narrow minded in those days, and God has molded me his own way, whether its the way I wanted or not (almost in every sense, it was the opposite direction I was trying to go).
All of my life I have been planning my future. Apparently, all my life God has been steering me away from those plans. Right now, I am at a point in life where I am not comfortable. I am content with being uncomfortable though, but that doesn't mean I like it. I know now that nothing I had dreamed my life to be will become reality.
I was talking to a friend today and sharing my journey. She gave me some inspiring encouragement. She said (summarizing): Nate, whatever God has in store for you, you will grab on to it and do great things. Maybe you will never have a wife and kids, but how much more joy will be brought to your life when hundreds of people come to know Jesus because of what you have done!?
A truth that I must never forget...
This verse has been changing my life and will continue to do so forever:
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
2 comments:
I'm so glad I have a new blog to stalk!! haha.
Anyway, this is really interesting to me because I'm going through or have gone through everything that you're going through--financial crap, learning to lean on God, not knowing what each day will bring--but what an adventure!!
Even though everything's not just as everyone else thinks is "should be," if you're doing what you KNOW God wants you to do, then life really can't get much better!
i totally agree with your friend. Regardless of where God takes you or what he calls you to do you will do amazing things. You are phenomenal and it's okay to know that!
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